who i am

i'm still sad
i thought i went out entirely
but seems everything was not as easy as i think

i know someone will ask
why should i pretend in front of everyone?
but what else can i do?
cry to get sympathize?speech out?
it's just nothing
i have nothing to talk

i am lost
i don't know when i could really get back
i am very suffering
but i can't do anything
am i still the one who is innocent and smile faithfully?

noone knows my feeling
i am just very lonely in this world
wondering who else should i believe

everyone that i thought i know very well is selfish
everyone will only care their own feelings
instead of caring others too
they blame others without thinking for the one they blame

i am very tired for everyone of them
do you all know how much i hope to get out from the school and the class?
i don't want to see them
yes,i did it
i live better than him now
but still
i am tired to see him everyday
since the day school reopened
i couldn't sleep well
i don't want to be that
anyone really understand?
i feel desperate
i feel sorrow
i don't know how should i face everyone

i found a way finally
be a coward who don't care eveything
just let it be
no wonder how people act and say
i just keep queit
all those feelings just keep as a secret
i don't need to talk much
it's what i have to suffer and i have a responsible to be
it's my life
which i should take over myself
noone can help me is the truth that i should accept