Tranquility.

Eventually I found the peace back to my soul.Somehow,yesterday was the very second time of being an extreme thinker in my life.Yet the ridiculous was,my studies aroused the evil spirits.I couldn't believe it had happened to me yesterday(I mean being feel extreme,lifeless,no motivation,no hope ..)My soul was like half-dead and I rejected every well-said quote that you could speak so easily yet it didn't go like the things had happened in reality at all.It'd been thousands years ago that I would be controlled by so called stress in my studies,even my SPM never stressed me in that ridiculous way.I drove to a place where I didn't even know what's the place called.My mind was so freaking messed up.

You know the reason why my faith to God is getting deeper day by day and still I persistently believe that I'm the blessed one?:)Because of them.

And our very young leader,Alvin.Haha.You helped me a lot a lot.Sometime I am out of words to express my feelings,so I rather to swallow everything myself and make no sense for everything around me.I meditate myself.I alienate myself from the crowd and hold the mere faith that I will recover from disturbance soon,I need time or so whatever. It's suffering and doesn't make sense at all.So,Kee Yean classified me as the passive one.Yea I am... for certain period.Haha.When I need,they come,without the need of saying even a word,especially Alvin.I feel really grateful to know everyone of you.Eunice,wei-li,wei-i,ypf rockslah...
Their caring is done through action and sincerely comes from the heart.

A guy I want to mention:Harry Wong.(A really passionate person and hold strong Christianity).Knowing that I'm freaking stress for my studies,he passed some CDs to me.Haha.Your CDs music are so calming please.I ♥ it to the max!! I never got a chance to get back to nature though,but through the natures music,where I can hear the birds and insects are whispering to each other,I gotta say...awwss!!I feel so NATURAL.It can barely satisfy my desires to embrace the nature. Haha.Find him if you need counselling,he is future potential psychologist.(My dear brother Kah Ming Poon said so...)
The test by God for this time dragged my tears out terribly,but His healing way and my friends' caring made my cry even worse(I was so touched). Haha.Teach me how not to smile please?
That isn't a big deal anymore,I will conquer the fear.