Mohammad Faz.

Mohammad Faz
他 对生命有很deep的热诚  他 对他的God有很deep的faith
今天 他走过来跟我一起坐 又再问我为什么我最近那么Emo 要我跟他一起谈
他 告诉了我很多很多 关于What the life means?
P/s: 他是用华语 一字一句地跟我说的 因为华语写作表达能力逐渐下降（有待进步） 所以用英文暂代

Why you like so emo lately?
I was stress of my studies.I have put quite a lot of effort in my studies as last sem I don't think I have really done well,but then ...yea,anyway,I am feeling the stress,negative ones.

Do you ever have your life goal?My ChungHwa High School's teacher taught me once...If one day,you feel lost please sit alone in your room,close your eyes and think about it.
Life goal is essential in life.You see,like me.I have once given up my passion in dancing because of my friends（we used to be the school dancers) who don't bother to train with me by giving out many excuses.I was very disappointed.But then,when I went through this process,I have actually learnt something.I can't expect anything from anyone as it's my will,I can't force them to go in my way.So I try my best in any way,I mingle with many friends,especially those who love dancing,I arrange the training for myself.I like to make friends,as in they can sharpen my perpespective in life.My mind is broaden....Hmm...My life goal is to be a professional dancer.It might not be my future career,but it's what I wanna do in my life,my interest,my passion for life.I love my life very much.You know...You came to this world alone,you will also leave the world alone.Accomplish a life goal is a must for me.I'm not trying to prove that..Oh I am so geng but... it's my life experience.I worked in my dad's company before coming to college and I knew how realistic the working world can turn to be.So clear of your goal is very important.You don't expect anyone would help you,but you must know yourself.What you have done in the past doesn't really matter now,but the present decide what your want in future.What do you want in your life?
Yea.I have goals in my life.somehow,since I started to struggle for my academic result,everything was out of my control.I'm trying to seek the balance in between but I can't.So this semester I spared more time on studies instead of hanging out with friends.I have tried my best,be true...But it was nothing at all.I actually know how to do the questions in exam paper.but that moment stress overwhelmed my mind and directed me to a wrong answer.I really don't know how should I control myself.Hmm..*smiling*in sem 1...I have done quite a lot of goals of my life.As you like to dance..hmm I like to be a volunteer for children and society.I concerned about those issues that people who's in poverty and need help.I tell you...I love that very much.But then...just like you.My friends,where we used to have same vision, weren't with me anymore...So maybe because of that,I rather focus more on my studies...

I am not in your shoes so I can't say your stress is either light or burdening...as long as you know yourself.Be true,human can't seek balance in whatever they do.As you wanna do something for your life,you must have thought it twice and make the decision...like economics:opportunity cost,to have something you must let go of other things.And you can't be regret of it.You do what you like,not what make you feel depressed.Iyee.. continue your goal.You can do it if you want to.
 *smiling*I will think about it darling.

As in life,you must know how valuable is it.God is so powerful that he is patient to hear your voice at heart.I wasn't saying that you must not tell anyone about your problems,but in case,some people would not bother to listen what you wanna say about,but God,he will.I have a deep relationship with my God.And,make friends can broaden your sight.I love to hear others comments.I like to discuss my problem,although usually I will solve my problem by myself,I will just sing *你的眼神 那么美丽 带走我的心跳....（王力宏）*Ooops paiseh..If I think they're right and I'm wrong,I will give my apologize sincerely.If not I will surely voice out and argue the right things.You must be happy.As like me,you know me right...I enjoy to bring happiness to people around me and also,it will make myself happy,and if so,why not I do?
*smiling**smiling*

他这个男生 很特别
特别得 我很喜欢他这个朋友
第一张照片 他看起来很邋遢 你知道为什么吗?
他告诉我说 他想尝试6个月不剪头发会怎样 哈哈 很炸到
他很有理想 很有想法 很独立
有时候会很emo
他 会三更半夜到中华独中 对面的路口想东西
想回他以前中学最快乐的时光 想回自己的人生
他告诉我说 他很想念他的朋友 还有在中学住宿舍的那段日子
他家明明就离Collge不会很远 可是依然坚持住宿舍
他点醒了我
我压力 不应该自甘堕落 而是寻找办法解决
一定要靠自己 不要依赖别人
我的梦想 曾经很伟大 所以我不可以因为别人的影响 这样就放弃

今天 我和Ashley去了国家图书馆 还有midvalley的书店
找资料做research paper
我很喜欢 坐在很多书的地方 看我自己喜欢看的书
特别是Midvalley的MPH 有音乐陪伴
我一个人 晚上十点 在Highway 驾车回家的途中 我想了很多很多
满脑子都是Faz告诉我的每一句话
忽然 我想回以前 我因为太贪玩而不想回家  到现在
才发现 家人对我永远是最重要的
以前 我不会想要买什么 或做些什么给我的家人
可是 现在 每当我逛街 我总会想起 要买些什么给他们
妈妈 我会买杂志给他 弟弟 我会买Auntie Annes
妹妹 我会带她吃好吃的
爸爸 我会想打电话问他放工回家了没有
人就是这样 好的人在面前永远不会珍惜
到了某个关头 才会反省
庆幸的是 我并没有迟到 早一些领悟了

对 还是我自己 我要学会爱自己 了解自己
才可以爱别人 了解别人
从今天开始 学会珍惜自己 珍惜真真爱你的人
:)

Loves,
till next.